I havenít posted here in a few years. Or at least it seems that long. You would think this condition would become easier to deal with after having it for over two decades, but it really doesnít. Do you guys ever wonder why me? I see plenty of clear-skinned people wherever I go and wonder why I am not one of those lucky ones?
Like most of you, I feel cheated. This condition has done a number on my psyche and self-esteem.
I just was promoted to sports editor of the newspaper Iíve worked for over a decade, mostly in obscurity thanks to this condition.
A good sports editor is out in the public eye and trying to form relationships with athletes, coaches and readers, etc. I donít really want to look people in the eye when my condition is flaring up, especially being outside in the sun.
I think the worst part is how much time I am thinking about this condition and how it will affect me in all aspects of my life.
I have a 1 1/2 year old son and another child on the way and a wife who loves me and doesnít even notice anything wrong with my face. Yet, I am miserable. I think it wouldnít be so bad if I didnít have the physical discomfort, but thatís not going away. So it magnifies ten-fold on my psyche.
Iím always hoping Iíll wake up. Itís 20 years ago, and my face is clear and I can see how much different my life would be.
Sorry for the pity party. But I needed to vent.