11th July 2012 05:52 PM
Fed Up with the Sunscreen Situation
Just a short introduction: for the past 8 years or so I'v had periodic red eyes; sometimes they would be perfectly fine even for years. I thought it was allergies and in fact, I still believe those are responsible to an extent. Last year around April I got sick of the sore eye bull and decided to chuck my skin care routine and try an all natural mineral baby sunscreen. Eyes remained irritated. In May, I decided to try an all chemical Sunscreen (Anthelios), thinking maybe minerals did not agree with my eyes. Big mistake. I'm not sure if that was my first rosacea outbreak, but I ended up with bumpy red skin for a week or so. Shocked by my normally great skin's horrible reaction, I stopped using anything and started applying "healing" oils. Nuther big mistake.
Long story short, my face has not been the same since. It's annoying because I was trying to help my eyes and ended up with BAD flushing rosacea. Looking back, I believe I've had this for about 10 years, but somehow, it just never bothered me or was painful at all, except for my eyes, but again, that came and went to a degree. Now, it is painfully awful and my triggers are numerous. I used to be an avid gardener, outdoor person, creative, athletic... none of that exists anymore and I hate this has stolen the things I love to do. I feel like a shell. My family has suffered, I suffer, everything is suffering. I've researched and tried everything over the past year; Oracea, Cetaphil, 3 Vbeams, allergy tests. The Oracea seemed to help my eyes a little, but my sensitivity to light seemed worse and I ended up having horrible dandruff. I believe I've also developed Seb Derm. The Vbeams were painful and I believe made things a little worse. I'm almost 3 months out from my last one. Don't think I'll go back for more.
Back to the sunscreens. Heaven help me I have a closet FULL of failed attempts at wearing this crap. No lie, 50 maybe. Vanicream, Cotz, drugstore, specialty, all natural... blah blah blah. Granted, they are all mineral based. I have a PHd in freakin sunscreens now and you know what? I don't want a PHd in sunscreens!!! I even tried mineral makeup and found one brand I thought was working and really liked, but recently I realized it's like brushing (no matter how lightly I do so) Soft Scrub cleanser on my delicate skin and I have shiny, eczema-like patches and ginormous pores I guess from the abrasiveness? Who the hell knows. It is after all, ground up metal and rock and no matter how much moisturizer I put on, it manages to grind right through it. When I think about it, I realize the insanity of using this stuff on your face... it's oxidized metal!! Isn't that like, rust?!?! If I rubbed finely ground oxidized metal on my dog everyday, he'd be bald. Same with any other animal out there.
I'm too scared to try another chemical one, and really after reading the safety profile and effectiveness of the chemical agents, what's the point? Reapply every 2 hours because they breakdown into carcinogens in sunlight? Really!?!?! What... do they think there's a timer on the chemicals and at 2 hours on the dot they BEGIN to breakdown? That stuff starts breaking down the minute it's exposed to the light. At two hours it's completely decomposed into who knows what? And what is with the waterproofness of EVERYTHING? How in the world do you get this stuff off your face? I had one of many derms I've seen tell me it doesn't matter if you get it all off as long as it is specifically made for your face. What if you wake up at 3 in the morning with a sunscreen teflon coating lighting your face on fire? Does it matter if I can get it off THEN?!? Seems like it's pretty urgent to do so at that point!
So I guess my question is, anybody else like this or am I some kinda freak? How does one function without sunscreen? How do you live a life? Hats can't keep the blazing sun out of my car window. Do I worry about the reflection of the UV rays bouncing to my face off the sidewalk? Am I just brainwashed? Am I doomed to becoming a giant red flaming pimple because I can't rub metals and toxins on my skin? My Scottish/Celtic ruddy faced, but tan husband uses nothing on his skin. He's fine and looks at me like he just can't understand how a person comes to believe their life stops without sunscreen. As I type that, I can't understand it either!
Sorry for rant. Hopefully it was ( if you made it through the whole thing) mildly entertaining to some degree. I'm just excited I can actually clean and moisturize my face after many failed attempts. Turns out when you're not trying to remove teflon and metal, it's a little easier to do and you don't have to do it as often.
11th July 2012 06:53 PM