I'm very depressed that I have rosacea and rhynophyma at the age of 26, apparently it is usually women that develop rosacea, but in men it is nearly always accompanied by rhynophyma, yet this is usually in late middle age. Well, I'm a young man, and I have both. Great.
I have always suffered with skin problems, and the impact it has had psychologically has been quite a detriment to my quality of life. In my teens I had bad acne, although this went from my face when I was about 19, only to appear on my back instead, and now that has calmed down, I have rosacea and rhynophyma. I have always had unpredictable and irregular bouts of eczema as well ever since my teens, although this comes as suddenly and mysteriously as it disappears, but when I get it, it is intense, it makes me feel like setting myself on fire just to get relief.
I had accepted my acne scarring, but with my rosacea problems now as well, I am completely disinterested in my appearance, because I don't see the point in caring, and I am pretty much a complete recluse. I sleep all day and would rather be awake during the night, because I cannot stand to have daylight on my face, especially when other people are looking at me, I hate it, it's psychologically painful. I was like this due to acne in my teens, and I am in the same habit now. I live like a vampire, the exposure of sunlight crushes my spirit. I work from home, but I'm getting so depressed I can't even do that anymore.
I first noticed the symptoms of rosacea developing in Summer last year, when a little, red, dry patch appeared on my cheekbone. Around that time, I noticed that I was blushing a lot over very trivial things, like I used to in my teens, although I've always been a blusher, and now I realise this was a warning sign of oncoming rosacea. I realised I had rosacea due to my own research, although because I am only in my twenties, I had a hard time convincing the doctor of this. I did get a diagnosis though, and I was prescribed some gel called 'Rozex', although I'm not sure if it's all that effective. I have the Celtic ancestry that rosacea sufferers tend to have in common, and I have noticed that my nose is beginning to change shape, and is continually greasy, no matter what I do - so I know this is the rhynophyma that accompanies rosacea in males.
When I first realised that I had rosacea I decided to change my diet, by cutting out all red meats and eating a great variety of vegetables, I basically lived off stir fries and fish. My skin improved, and so I slipped back into my old eating habits, although because my problem is gaining on me again, I have returned to a vegetarian diet and have stopped smoking. I intended to go vegan, because I have an intuitive hunch that tells me that dairy products are not doing me any good, so I'm going to cut dairy out eventually as well, and just eat raw fruit and veg. Call me superstitious, but I am going to eliminate all red foods, and overdose on the green, because you are what you eat. I have developed an aversion to the colour red. To me, it represents the devil. So yea, this problem is having quite a psychological impact - haha. I'll never drink alcohol again, because even just one can of beer makes my face tingle and burn.
I really need to know how to stop this conditon getting any worse right now. The rosacea doesn't worry me nearly as much as the rhinophyma, because rosacea is just discolouring, and can reverse, but rhinophyma is disfiguring, and cannot be reversed, I would require surgery, and my nose is changing shape at an alarming rate, I can even feel it constantly. The doctor says, 'your nose looks fine to me', but that's because he doesn't know what my nose looked like before. I feel like taking a razor blade to it. Im very concerned as to what my nose will look like in years to come if this doesn't stop. I have no self-esteem as it is, and an aversion to looking in the mirror. For example, even before this, if I went out and caught my reflection in a window I would cringe, and I could not go into lifts that had mirrored walls on the inside, because this was like torture to me, and this was before I had rosacea due to the psychological damage caused by acne in my teens, and now problems of this nature are very much intensified.
Anyway, sorry for rambling on so much, but I can't talk to anybody about my concerns without being told things like, 'Oh, don't worry about it', or, 'You look fine to me', and, 'It's not all that bad', which is just peoples way of saying that it's just hard luck and I'll have to deal with it, but I can't deal with it. Skin problems have already changed the course of my life for the worse, and I really don't need this nail hammered in any further.