stringer97
31st January 2006, 06:17 PM
hi my names Daniel and some of u may have spotted me on the other forums but most likely not as i have been very quiet for the last year.
I will probley ask a few questions that have been asked already but i hope at least to have some replies.
As im new i will describe everything and start from beginning. i developed hh (exsessive sweating) at the age 16. really brough my confidence down. 2003 i started to flush and blush. as u can imagen this brought my confidence down a lot more. I was going deep red for no reason at all. like some of you. this disease took over my job as an electrician and at the age of 20 i quit my job. been jobless and swimming in my self pity for the last 2 years feeling sorry for myself and woundering why im always going red as well as the hh but thats not for this froum. It got to the point where i got so low in depression that i was ready to shut the pain as in my eyes this was too much for me to handle. As u all know its a nightmare to deal with. It was a huge confidence blow for me, i could hide the hh but the flushing is a different story. hot rooms bending over, eating certain foods, laughing, coughing, standing up in front of crowds, questioning someones and many more cause me to turn so briight red that it causes me pain. My cheeks as most of u describe have this sensation that starts to hurt minutes after the flush. my face would turn to normal after but 3 years of having ff has now marked me for what i have belived for life. but having read drnase posts and website, im starting to belive i have some hope.
after falling so low i decided to seek some help. but this was more to help my social phobia and get me out of the house than to help me deal with the ff. I am now back in a job its not a job im proud of as all im doing is cleaning up rubbish for a living. im 23 now. this disease took my dreams away took my confidence away and put me on the streets to clean rubbish. I now have as i said permanent redness which i think is mild. moderate rosacea, not to mention from last year around april i suffer from painfull migranes 5/7 days a week. along with these headache come with eye pain. Sometimes i wanan scream. im waking up every day and goign to this crappy job. i feel im fighting everything in me not to lock myself up in my room and become depressed. i can laugh and smile at work but its all just an act. many times im finding im simply crying when im alone. I dont know what to try i have been to my doc and i even was up for ETS but i ran from it for fear of side effects. I am watching my image change. when i know im in a full full i avoid the mirror at all costs as i fear it will only pull me into feeling more depressed. Im going on cause i want something of my life. but its hard as u all know. i want to go back to my gp to try and put a hold to this disase getting worse. i will give him drnase website and ask him to read up on it to find me something that will hold this problem back for as long as possible. i hope you guys and drnase can recomend me some products to give him. i belive he dont understand what im going through. i feel trapped. At this very moment i right this i can feel the burning sensation in my face. I dread summer.
I feel nasty with this disease, in some ways i feel selfish as i cannot die from it but sometimes i wish for it. Im a strong person and have doen amazing things in this year to pull myself up. In some ways i belive the improvment is a miracle. but its only a matter of time before i fall down again and i fear i cannot get up after. I read lost of this froum and will continue to read and post. but my attiude is go to wrok and come back and hide away.
look forward to some freindly posts. i wish everyone the best of luck, i understand u all so well. with dr nase help we can beat this. its only a matter of time, i just hope we can all wait for the next 2 years. btw IPL is it worth a shot?
thanks.
daniel
:oops: :oops:
I will probley ask a few questions that have been asked already but i hope at least to have some replies.
As im new i will describe everything and start from beginning. i developed hh (exsessive sweating) at the age 16. really brough my confidence down. 2003 i started to flush and blush. as u can imagen this brought my confidence down a lot more. I was going deep red for no reason at all. like some of you. this disease took over my job as an electrician and at the age of 20 i quit my job. been jobless and swimming in my self pity for the last 2 years feeling sorry for myself and woundering why im always going red as well as the hh but thats not for this froum. It got to the point where i got so low in depression that i was ready to shut the pain as in my eyes this was too much for me to handle. As u all know its a nightmare to deal with. It was a huge confidence blow for me, i could hide the hh but the flushing is a different story. hot rooms bending over, eating certain foods, laughing, coughing, standing up in front of crowds, questioning someones and many more cause me to turn so briight red that it causes me pain. My cheeks as most of u describe have this sensation that starts to hurt minutes after the flush. my face would turn to normal after but 3 years of having ff has now marked me for what i have belived for life. but having read drnase posts and website, im starting to belive i have some hope.
after falling so low i decided to seek some help. but this was more to help my social phobia and get me out of the house than to help me deal with the ff. I am now back in a job its not a job im proud of as all im doing is cleaning up rubbish for a living. im 23 now. this disease took my dreams away took my confidence away and put me on the streets to clean rubbish. I now have as i said permanent redness which i think is mild. moderate rosacea, not to mention from last year around april i suffer from painfull migranes 5/7 days a week. along with these headache come with eye pain. Sometimes i wanan scream. im waking up every day and goign to this crappy job. i feel im fighting everything in me not to lock myself up in my room and become depressed. i can laugh and smile at work but its all just an act. many times im finding im simply crying when im alone. I dont know what to try i have been to my doc and i even was up for ETS but i ran from it for fear of side effects. I am watching my image change. when i know im in a full full i avoid the mirror at all costs as i fear it will only pull me into feeling more depressed. Im going on cause i want something of my life. but its hard as u all know. i want to go back to my gp to try and put a hold to this disase getting worse. i will give him drnase website and ask him to read up on it to find me something that will hold this problem back for as long as possible. i hope you guys and drnase can recomend me some products to give him. i belive he dont understand what im going through. i feel trapped. At this very moment i right this i can feel the burning sensation in my face. I dread summer.
I feel nasty with this disease, in some ways i feel selfish as i cannot die from it but sometimes i wish for it. Im a strong person and have doen amazing things in this year to pull myself up. In some ways i belive the improvment is a miracle. but its only a matter of time before i fall down again and i fear i cannot get up after. I read lost of this froum and will continue to read and post. but my attiude is go to wrok and come back and hide away.
look forward to some freindly posts. i wish everyone the best of luck, i understand u all so well. with dr nase help we can beat this. its only a matter of time, i just hope we can all wait for the next 2 years. btw IPL is it worth a shot?
thanks.
daniel
:oops: :oops: